11dp3dt - ALL OVER

I got my period this morning. I am grief-stricken.

Cry baby 8dp3dt

It has been a pretty easy two week wait this time - I took a proper two days off to rest and recover after transfer - and then back to work for a few days then some quality time with my ma. Yesterday was Christmas and my birthday - a very nice day - no family rows - lovely. Today - I have been a crying girl - sobbing like a baby - I don't know what came over me - I think it has been a big build up. I am another year older - and still no baby. My husband is still in the UK - I still haven't found a proper place to live in Sydney - and I am still not loving my new job.

Anyway - I took my sobbing self home to my mum's and put this cry baby to bed for a much needed lunchtime sleep - and I am feeling much better.

Symptom watch: sore boobs (didn't have that last cycle)
cramping (didn't have that this earyl last cycle)
slightly sick in the gut (did have this last cycle)

5 days to beta!!

6dp3dt

Not much going on - except Christmas!!! I am enjoying just having the HCG injections rather than the progesterone pess mess things. Tho the downside is not being able to pee on a stick. I tried late yesterday afternoon and it was amazing to see one of those things come up positive. I thought - so that's what it looks like. I am going to pee every day until I see it is out of my system. I had the last injection last friday - and the verdict seems to be out on how many days it should take. I feel quite preggers - but that would be the HCG (pregnyl).

Merry Christmas to all!!

Home and happy - Day 3 transfer

It has been a roller coaster few days. I've just had transferred one eight cell grade 1 (the best) rock star embryo - and I am home and feeling happy and hopeful. The transfer was sooo easy - after the horror experience I had last time.

It was the one and only to make it out complete on Saturday. One other egg was cracked - and two follicles were empty.

Needless to say - I was really upset - after it was looking like I would at least get three eggs.

I hardly slept a wink on Saturday night - waiting to hear if my one and only fertilized. And again last night - because they said they don't check on them on day 2 - and the first I would find out if it had stopped developing would be this morning.

I am so happy to have it back inside me. BETA TEST ON 31ST DECEMBER - a positive would be a perfect way to say hello to 2008.

My fingers are crossed for my December friends set for betas in the next few days.

Coming out on Saturday

My doctor rang me himself yesterday - and said I was to trigger that evening - and he was highly recommending we do retrieval with general anesthetic. Sydney IVF always do it with local (I have heard reports it hurts like hell) - but he thinks because of my fibroids it will be tooooo painful. Soooo he is looking after me - I hope.

The bad side is ofcourse my husband is back in the UK - and I have to have someone take me home and look after me afterwards. Luckily one of my lovely friends has canceled all her saturday plans to be my minder. She went thru IVF herself in July - sadly it didn't work - and she says so far she has had no desire to do it again.

All in all - this cycle has been a breeze - even tho much more full on care than the last. And even tho I was poised to quit my new job this afternoon because I felt my boss was having a dig at me - I have felt really calm about it all. Not much stressing.

I am really hoping for four eggs - and all four to fertilize and divide into 8 cell embryos. Hey - no reason not to hope for the best.

The fab four

I am waiting for a call to tell me if trigger is tonight. Went for bloods and scan again this morning - and the four of the right are now 20,20,17 and amazingly the 13 from yesterday is now 17 as well.

I kinda hope they give them one more day - so the 17s can get a bit bigger. But they are the experts.

Sadly leftie has not been seen since Saturdayy - soooo god knows.

Anyway - I am feeling good about my fab four.

Not such a good scan - Day 10

Mmmm I didn't like the nurse from the moment I walked into the scan room - she was grumpy and didn't like the fact - that they have been checking my ovaries inside and out (lots of fibroids inside - yuk).

Anyway - she only found three on the right ovary - there were four on saturday and all around 14 mm.

And she declared my much hoped for follicle on the left - as not being a follicle. CRAP CRAP CRAP. I was sooo hoping to have five.

Anyway - no doubt I will be back again on Wednesday - as the biggest is still only 16 mm - and maybe it will be better.

Must try and have big steak for dinner tonight.

Day 8 - and One MORE follicle

Second scan today - and my famous four follicles are growing nicely on the right side. The left ovary has been missing in action for quite some time. In fact - all through my last cycle - they never managed to find it even once. This morning's nurse - after measuring follicles on the right - said 'now let's have a look for the left one'. I was poised to say - don't bother - it has gone awol - when she found it and one very nice sized follicle - very happy!!!

The big cheese nurse rang this arvo (pretty impressive on a saturday) to say they are happy with my E2 levels - rising nicely.... and I am to go for another scan/blood test on Monday - and I could be looking at retrieval on wednesday or thursday.

I can't tell you how much better I feel about this cycle than the last one.

400% improvement

First scan this morning - and while 6 or 8 follicles would have been fab - four decent size ones - is MUCH better than last time.

Feeling good - looking good.

New cycle - what a shock

No one is more shocked than I - that I am doing it all again.

And I must say to all those Brits - they do it better in Australia.

My husband came out for two weeks - and I managed to convince him to go to the doctor - and before we knew it - he had given them some sperm to freeze - and here I am on day 4 of FSH drugs.

Doc decided not to do 'down regs' - and to test my FSH on day 1 - and if it was low enough - we would go for it. And shock - horror - IT WAS.

Soooo fingers crossed there is more than one egg growing in there.