Too Long

God - I am a bad blogger - it has been more than two months!!

I went back to the UK for Christmas and had a lovely holiday with my spouse... sad to say no real decisions reached on where we are going to live (Australia or London) or about the next step in having a family.

We discussed donor eggs and he kinda freaked out (he freaks out at anything new) - and we also discussed another cycle with my sister.

My sister is not leaning towards doing it all again tho - she found the whole thing so mentally draining and physically uncomfortable. I can only respect her call - and love her for doing it twice.

I have been entertaining the past few days doing it one final time with my crusty old eggs. It would be daft and have extremely little chance of working - but it would be the last chance.

It would not cost a fortune but the emotional cost would be a lot greater.

I know we need to move to a young donor if we are to have a family - it is just the pain of getting there. My husband's freak outs do my head in - and the whole process requires my utmost determination.