Embryo transfer went ahead yesterday - day 5 - but was not without drama - and I wish I could feel more positive.
The day 3 v day 5 issue with the clinic was easily ish resolved - and on Friday - day 2 - all ten embryos were looking good. Clinic rang again on Saturday morning - to say 6 embryos were excellent 8 cells - and the others were just a little behind.
Yesterday morning (day 5)- when I was in the shower - they left a message on my voice phone to say - embryos doing 'well' - and all was on course for 2pm transfer.
Hubby and I had talked about number to put back - and my donor being so young - and our desire not to have twins had us fixed on putting back one.
Having been through this so many times - my hubby walked me to the clinic - said goodbye out the front- and again mentioned only one.
Yes - you can guess what is going to happen.
Up in the seat - awaiting transfer - embryologist and doctor join me. 9 of the Ten are still alive - but 4 are quite so slow - and of the five at blastocyst stage only 2 are where they should be.. but even then are still a little behind - as in they had not fully expanded. Embryologist is suggesting I put back two. The doctor - who through out the whole process has been in favor of only putting one - is also suggesting two.
I briefly consider just saying yes - but with hubby's 'only one' voice in my ear - I ask if I can ring him.
So now - in my gown with bottom exposed - I am out in the corridor on my mobile - trying to convince my husband I am not trying to pull a 'swifty' (once a suspicious journalist, always a suspicious journalist - and end up with twins on purpose. 'But we had a deal - only one' - he keeps saying.
The mobile reception keeps dropping out - and I have to keep ringing him back - eventually I put him on to the embryologist - who only seems to wind him up further.
I give in - and have 'only one put back' - and am now searching for hope.
On the plus sides - the transfer was very easy - and for the first time - I got to stay laying down on the bed for 30 mins.
It is the only blastocyst - I have ever had put back inside me... even if it isn't expanded like it should be.
And I have got a week off work to chill out.
Needless to say - in the calm light of evening at home - and my less stressed explanation - my husband now keeps saying 'we should have put back two'.
I am trying not to be disappointed... and think positive thoughts.
PS - ladies who left lovely comments on my last post - I have tried to reply - but your blogs won't let me. Not sure what I am doing wrong. So forgive my rudeness.