Thursday, August 28, 2008

Bad news

Beta only rose to 70 - not enough to be viable.

Now the nurses are concerned it could be ectopic - what a cruel twist of fate if a healthy embryo implanted in the wrong spot. I am really hoping it isn't - as just want it all to be over with.

Expecting a call from doctor today. I am still taking all the drugs - and still couldn't bring myself to have a glass of wine last night - crap isn't it.

They want me to have another blood test on Sunday - but we are going to be in a completely remote spot - and Monday will be a long ferry ride and a plane back to Sydney.

So it will have to be Tuesday - unless ofcourse I get ectopic symptoms and then will head to the nearest hospital double quick.

We were driving through some of the most beautiful countryside I have ever seen yesterday when the bad news came through. I howled with the pain of a thousand arrows to the heart.

I have felt the past few days that my 'sickness' was too sporadic - it would come it a wave and be gone. I had been keeping away from the pee sticks.


Blogger Portia P said...

Oh sweetie. I'm so sorry. So close.

I'm thinking of you and sending you a huge hug xxx

10:27 AM  
Blogger Carrie said...

I'm so so sorry. I know the feeling and it is the worst of all possibilities. I really hope it is not an ectopic, that is just more complication.
I hope you have support there and you are able to take some time to lick your wounds.

You'll be in my thoughts xx

1:00 PM  
Blogger Melbagirl said...

Oh my goodness.

There are no words are there? Except well, a lot of swear words.

I'm thinking of you too. Take care of yourself and do whatever you feel like doing if it helps to make you feel a little better.

3:19 PM  
Blogger Tam said...

I am so sorry sweetie.

My thoughts are with you during this time.

Much love xxx

3:41 AM  
Blogger Kim said...

Oh honey, I'm so sorry.

That just sucks. It really does.

9:20 AM  

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