Scared

It is ultrascan day - Friday 29th of May - and I am scared. It would have been my fav grandmother's 103 birthday today.

I don't want this to be over. Preg symptoms are massive but I have read that can be the placenta -nothing to do with embryo.

I am five weeks and 6 days along - so hoping despite my hugely tilted uterus they can see yolk sac and fetal pole. A heartbeat seems just too greedy.

Please universe don't let it be over.