Snowy tuesday
I don't have much to write these days - my husband says most days he knows we need to do IVF - he says he knows he needs to say to me 'let's do IVF' - but he is scared.
I too am scared. Scared I am going to leave before he gets the courage to say it - scared I am going to explode from frustration and rage. And so much of it is rage against him. It is very bad - so how could I want to bring a baby into a relationship that some days seems like a disaster.
I know he loves me - sometime I am not sure what I feel.
I never thought it could come to this.
I too am scared. Scared I am going to leave before he gets the courage to say it - scared I am going to explode from frustration and rage. And so much of it is rage against him. It is very bad - so how could I want to bring a baby into a relationship that some days seems like a disaster.
I know he loves me - sometime I am not sure what I feel.
I never thought it could come to this.
posted by andi at 11:09 AM
5 Comments:
oh gosh, i remember how horrible those days were before we decided to do IVF. after a year of IUIs and still no diagnosis, we had such a hard time absorbing that IVF was the best option. and all the failed cycles ahd taken such a huge toll on each of us individually and on our marriage. we ended up taking a whole year break from ttc, during which we became a stronger couple than we'd ever been, and thank god now we're ready to face ivf together. i hope your struggles are no where near that trying. i hope your infertility journey happily ends soon and you don't have to go through this anymore. best of luck to you.
Sorry for the frustrations. I'd be scared of moving up to IVF too. ART sometimes puts a strain in a relationship. Hang in there.
Andi - you can e-mail me at kattyspurr@yahoo.co.uk and I'll answer your questions.
Katty
Just wanted to thank you for stopping by my blog, and reading your latest post, I can see that you and I have the whole frustrating "hesitant husband" thing in common. I wish we didn't, though.......So very sorry you're having such a hard time.
Saw your comment on Portia's blog and just wanted to drop you a note. Good luck on your return home to Oz and I hope that happy days are ahead.
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