damn it

I got my period this morning - dashing hopes of arriving home in Australia - with good news - damn it. After sobbing trip to the bathroom - I had a row with my husband this morning - he says I blame him - and the scary truth is - I probably do. He has been so reluctant - about the baby thing. He went through IVF with his ex wife - and no child resulted - so it is slightly understandable - but I now feel like I am just toooooo old.... I told him this morning - I feel like a little bit of me dies every month when my period arrives. Anyway - we have kissed and made up - and will have a nice drunken holiday at home - and tackle the IVF issue when we return in December. Happy holidays.